There is the one in our head. Our mind. Our thoughts. A ceaseless display of judgement, categorizing, concerns, plans, reminders and control. As a result our emotions are activated. Up. Down. Tranquil or tumultuous.

There are the voices of others. Mainly, their thoughts. We take them in, reject them, judge them as useful, useless, infuriating, comforting or otherwise. As a result we feel better, worse, confused or content.

This is the chaotic, unpredictable, ever-changing surface of the lake.

There is another voice. It is ever-present beneath the surface. Deep below, where it is dark and calm. It can go unrecognized for its quiet power. It sounds different. Stillness is usually required to hear it. 

Although it can surface in times of great distress or trauma, loud and clear as a bell. In desperation we open to it. It is unchanging, ineffable and yet loving. 

It can heard within and without. 

Sit. Wait with no expectation and an energy will rise inside you. With it may be knowing or inspiration or the answer you were seeking, if you have the ears to hear it.

Listen. In silence it may reveal itself in the wind, as the wind, or another element. It is formless and may take any shape to reach you. You will know it if your heart is open in the moment. Only in the moment.

Have you heard the voice I speak of? 

She has told me when to pay attention many times in my life. When someone or some thing was significant, was my next step, or even where I would live. 

She has said, “Keep going. You’re on the track.” And “No. That is not for you.” 

As well, She knows when it is time to move on.

(She has no gender yet takes no offense that I refer to Her, I’m sure.)

She is Peace and Love and always encourages me to be me. To be more and more myself. And the more I listen to this voice the more I become aware that we are One. That’s the irony.

So, have you heard this voice?

Shhhh. Listen.

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A Middle Way

Some of us see only this material world and are addicted to the thinking, the struggle, the fight and the attempts to make things happen. This can make us cynical, anxious or exhausted, and hunched over and worn out by the end.

Some of us are floating above, in meditation or bliss. We see auras, and possibility in affirmations and surrendering to the Universe. This can make us lighter until we are ready to float away or wanting to be holed up in a monastery alone in our peace.

There is a Middle Way, as Buddhism terms the application of the spiritual onto the material, the balance between effort and surrender.

I am drawn to teachers who teach such ways. 

Adyashanti reminded us meditators on silent retreat to  “Be a good steward of your life” and to “Enjoy yourself” while also teaching us the possibility of being aware of ourselves as pure, eternal awareness.

Yoga superstar David Life says that yoga is important but not serious, that we should strive like it matters absolutely while laughing at the idea that it does at all.

Sometimes I’m struggling too hard.

Sometimes I’m dreaming the day away.

On Middle Way days, I’m listening inside and showing up for myself and others. I work, and rest, and tune in then tune out.

How about you? How are you?

Do you need more lightness and surrender? To rest, even if just to breathe deeply for a minute?

To you I say 

If you’re exhausted, rest.

If you’re anxious, sad or angry, allow.

All is well in this moment. Breathe.

Do you need to get your boots on the ground and put ideas into action? Do you need a cheerleader or a kick in the pants?

If you have gifts, please give them.

To you I say

If you’re aware, share.

To you I say

If you have gifts, please give them.

If you’re aware, share.

If you find peace, show us the way.

Be a good steward of your life.  Take care of you and those around you.

The whole of the world needs us all –  present and available, enlightened and on fire.

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As I See It

Do you want your self-help or spiritual advice with sugar on top of it? 
Then my work is not for you. I don’t do that.

I call it as I see it. And I see it. I see the bullshit – the excuses, the old patterns replaying, the projection onto others, fears, addiction, unfounded concerns and unhelpful familiar beliefs. I see how you love these things. Your attachment to them has developed over years, decades. 

I understand. I have had them and held them and loved them too. 

It became a joke between my wusband (husband, past tense) and I that when my parents or his parents were coming for a visit and we were cleaning the house and generally preparing to have guests, that I would have to wash the dogs. Myself. In the house. A huge Lab and a very fluffy Eskimo who took a long time to blow dry. 

After he mocked me for needing to add to my stress by having to wash the dogs, we laughed. And I saw. I saw that I had some underlying anxiety that I wasn’t dealing with and that somehow adding ‘Wash the dogs’ to my to-do list helped to justify it.

I have seen lots of my own lies.

I saw my own lie that he needed to stop drinking for me to be happy.
I saw the lie that I had to try to control outside circumstances for my peace.
I saw that I felt less than worthy of all good things and that I was afraid of being happy.

More recently I discovered that I was addicted to sugar. 
And I found myths about authority that have precluded me from owning what I know and what I can offer the world.
I am constantly shedding the unnecessary.

Maybe it’s possible to sail through life in our natural, pure state – if we are raised by wolves or some other wild, enlightened creature and protected from society’s beliefs and imposition. Yeah, not likely.

This life is a process of taking in and then undoing. Undoing all that we unwittingly accumulate as we grow that’s untrue or unhelpful. Shedding the layers to uncover the treasure always waiting inside – the True Self, the Natural Self. Peace. Grace. Joy. Ease. Connection. Love.

All else is contrived and kept by the mind.

Are you willing to let it go, for yourself and for the world?

Then you might like my sermons and writing. You might want to work with me 1-on-1, come to a SoL Sunday Celebration in person or virtually via Facebook Live, or attend a Sermon on How to Get Your Shit Together online.

I would be honored to walk a part of your path with you, share stories and truth, and tell you what I see.



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